My Anxiety


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On Wednesday I posted my first article since February (Losing My Way)and to be completely honest I have never been so nervous or sick in my life.

It never used to be this way, when I started my blogs I was just looking for something to do while I was injured and couldn’t attend jiu-jitsu. While I had hoped that some people would read my work (it was only MMA related) I didn’t think that I would get the chance to sit cage side at the UFC let alone interview the president of the company.

The thing was back then, I knew what to write about and was excited to analyse and put something up from a passionate MMA supporter. It was also very much a learning experience for me; I worked out how to use blogger and WordPress along with such cool things like putting photos and YouTube videos in my blogs as well. At no stage did I have a problem with content or getting writers block, everything just seemed to flow and it was great.

Fast forward to today, this year I have posted twice and I have at least 10 unfinished pieces. This problem started when I tried to branch out into other areas (other sports, personal stories) something I have done since moving to Canberra for uni. I desperately didn’t (and still don’t) want to be seen as a one trick pony, the main problem has been the criticism I have received. This mainly has revolved around the comments I have received from my uni teachers, which really should have spurned me on to do better except I have dwelled on their comments. If I want to succeed in life I really need to handle the constructive criticism but in the back of my mind I battle with thoughts of whether I am good enough to do something as creative as writing.

After having it as a draft for 3 weeks I decided to hit publish but the feelings I had right up until hitting that publish button made me the most anxious I have been for a long time.

In Losing My Way I said that I was going to start making things happen instead of wishing for them to happen, so far I haven’t kept to that but hopefully with two published posts in one week I can keep this momentum going.

(This song has helped me out through some tough times-credit Spotify/Black Eyed Peas)

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How The Other Half Lives

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To get an insight to how the rich lived in 80’s and 90’s you had to watch Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous, in the naughties there was MTV Cribs (Though there were a few episodes that were fake)   or VH1’s Lifestyles of the Fabulous. 


(Intro for Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous/Youtube)

These days however we are able to get an instant view through the wonders of our smartphones and social media.

Instagram accounts such as the Rich Kids of London, Rich kids of Dubai and the rich kids of Singapore show us exactly they like to live the high life.

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(Photo Credit Instagram/Rich Kids Of Dubai)

Though you may think that these ‘Rich Kids’ want to rub their wealth in your face with these pages, it seems that the man behind Rich Kids Of London wanted the opposite. In an interview with Business Insider back in 2016, the creator of the Rich Kids of London  (a 21 year old nameless broker) said that his intention for starting the pages was to “Motivate people to do well in their life”.


(Photo Credit Instagram/Rich Kids of Instagram)

Not to be outdone by the youngsters, there is a page for the parents of Instagram as well.

https://www.instagram.com/p/BYD5lG7hkrC/
(Photo Credit Instagram/Rich Parents of Insta)